I’ve been going to school now for almost 17 years, and Math has been a required subject since kindergarten. Fortunately for me, I’ve always really enjoyed math. Doing math problems helps me calm down when I feel stressed, and stretching my mind to understand new mathematical concepts is something that feels like coming home.
But I know most people don’t feel this way. I read somewhere that more than 10% of schoolchildren experience pretty bad math anxiety (I know, Wikipedia readers, “[citation needed]”). But that’s a lot of students. And those are only the ones who can give it a label. Based on my experience tutoring, I would say more than half of people feel stressed out at the idea of doing math problems.
I don’t think math is the problem. I think something I call the “methodology mindset” is. And I think textbooks are.
Ever opened up a math textbook? Some people don’t open up their first math textbook until college. When they do, they are likely to see something like this:

Then they throw up.
What’s written above isn’t the kind of thing written for students to understand math. It’s written for mathematicians.
But mathematicians aren’t the ones reading Calculus textbooks! They are too busy reading books on analytic geometry or number theory. The only people who read textbooks are teachers and students. And the teachers don’t need them either, at least not for learning the material (we hope). So why don’t mathematicians write textbooks for students?
Math, especially the post-college kind of math, is a major language. And it’s the language mathematicians speak most of the time. If you’ve ever met someone who has trouble speaking their native language after spending a lot of time in a foreign country, then you can understand. A mathematician spends so much time thinking and writing in mathspeak (probably in their basement, which is where all respectable mathematicians spend the majority of their time, scribbling down numbers and letters and muttering under their breath) that when they start writing a textbook for students, they might forget to use normal human languages. And maybe we can cut them a break. Would you be able to teach a kindergartener to tie their shoes with a knot you DON’T usually use?
The problem is, we rely on these mathematicians to pass our classes and do our jobs. There are plenty of translation agencies–teachers, websites, youtube videos, books, etc. But why not just make understandable material in the first place?
That’s my goal, with NotATextbook. I want to write a textbook that students can actually use. One without proofs and formal language and weird symbols that no one really understands and fewer people use. I’ll start with Calculus, as it lends itself very easily to a conceptual explanation, and because it’s my favorite of the maths. Hopefully, when I finally publish it, it can be a resource written in a language students can understand. Everyone can understand math with enough mental effort and a good enough explanation. Students, you’re responsible for the mental effort. I’ll do my best to give a good explanation.
Even if I write it in my basement.